JOBLESS part 1

Assalamualaikum dan Hi,

A very warm intro that could make me more sad. As you know, itu pun kalau ada yang mengikuti dan berharap aku kembali menaip... it's been such a long break from blogging. Yeah..really... but unfortunately I could not say that my break is something that wonderful. Not at all..

Sorry for bothering all of you with my long sad story that merapu. Well... i bet yes I am. I'm totally live with all these ridiculous issues around. 

No picture that I could upload even the fact is my phone was fulled with pictures that could tells millions of story. 

I guess I will kept myself mumbling about all of this thing that going on in my life. No picture will describe my real feeling. 

As far you can see, this entry totally about my current situation that 'JOBLESS'. Well...well... yeah.. Mungkin korang akan cakap benda yang aku selalu dengar... Usaha lagi.. Mesti ada kerja yang lebih baik.. Cuba je kerja apa-apa pun....

Well... Stop it. I'm tired and really sick with all of this. Really...

It bothering me and make me sad. Aku sendiri tak tahu nak cakap macam mana dan kalau korang rasa blog aku ini tak sesuai dengan korang, it's okay. Stop wasting your time and stop come here.

I just update this entry as it comes from my bff who seem wondering why I'm kept myself away from Twitter and Blog. Well my dear, this is the main probs here. I'm just sick of it and hoping the time will stop for a while. 

I dunno what else to say. Just let it end here. Selamat BEKERJA buat yang bekerja... 

Matta Fair 2012 PWTC

Assalamualaikum,


Seperti entry yang lepas, kali ini nak story event yang berlangsung pada hari ahad lepas. Matta Fair yang memang best sebab excited kan. hehe


Aku pergi dengan BFF aku, Cik Faridah Hanim. Kami jenjalan sesama dari Star PWTC. Dah lama tak jumpa sejak form 5. Rasanya dah lebih 3 tahun kot. Lama giler. Kiteorang selalu berborak dalam alam maya je. Rindu! Hehe


Sampai sana pukul 10 macam tu. Aku yang lambat sebab ada hal kat rumah yang membuatkan aku terlambat. Baik, sila lupakan saja ye.

Okay, tangan hitam. Paham! Hehe

Time tu dah ramai orang. Tiket per adult RM3 ye, dapat goodies bag dan newspaper free. Masuk terus masuk Hall 3 kot. Tah la tak sure pulak.

Fida yang dah macam pokok Krismas. Hehe

Punya pening pusing. Semua overseas. Okay, kami kena carik yang dalam Malaysia punya ye. Keluar-keluar terus masuk balik macam baru first time masuk (berpura-pura). hehe.


Jumpa jugak! Rupanya belah dalam. Kat Hall 1. Apa la. Sengal. Haha.. Terus survey dalam sejam lebih. Lepas pilihan dibuat, kami membuat bayaran! Yeah. Harga pun okay, semua okay. Semoga ini adalah pilihan yang bijak.


Ingatkan nak pergi Fotokem punya fair tapi hampa sebab tak best langsung. Sikit je booth yang ada. Terus keluar pergi The Mall untuk lunch. Bila dah kenyang, kami berdua beransur pulang.


So, insyallah next our date will be the end of the year. Maybe? Hope so. Can't wait for our first backpack! =)

nota kaki:travel mood

Happy Birthday Faridah Hanim Mohd Khalim!

Assalamualaikum,


*entry ni agak panjang ye..harap maklum..hahaha


Pertama sekali, aku nak wish selamat menyambut ulang tahun kelahiran ke-21. Well, sebagai adik sepatutnya kau perlu lebih hormat dan selalu contact aku..ye dakk? Hahhaa.. Gurau je.


Agak lama kita tak berjumpa kan? Aku rasa lebih kurang 4 tahun kan? Kalau aku tak salah la. Since lepas SPM memang aku tak jumpa. Yela, budak pandai memang belajar jauh-jauh kan? Hehe..


Disebabkan jarang berjumpa, serius aku tak ingat kalau kita pernah berjumpa or terserempak sepanjang waktu 4 tahun tu. Dan paling penting tak sabar nak reunion dengan kawan-kawan yang lain. Rindu sangat-sangat.


Hari tu kau dah post 1 entry khas untuk aku sempena ulang tahun aku so sekarang aku nak buat 1 post istimewa buat rakan karibku sejak tadika kemas lagi. hehe


Ye, memang kita berkenalan sejak di tadika tapi aku memang hanya rapat dengan sepupu aku je. Yela, aku kan pemalu dan sememangnya bukan seorang yang ringan mulut macam SEKARANG. Oh, dunia sudah berubah. ehhe.. Balik tadika aku akan lepak dekat rumah sepupu aku yang berada di hadapan rumah aku je sebab mak dan ayah aku tak balik dari sekolah lagi (kerja sebagai cikgu..biasalah..).


Kadang-kadang kalau petang-petang aku akan main sorang-sorang belakang kedai ayam ayah aku tuu. Main masak-masak, main tangkap kumbang, main petik bunga, berangan sorang-sorang dan lain-lain. Kira aku sangat active dengan aktiviti aku sebagai individu kesunyian. Hahha


Aku akui rakan-rakan di sekolah sekadar di sekolah. Aku segan dan malu kalau jumpa dieorang kat luar sekolah. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku jadi pemalu gila. Rasa kelakar. Haha.. Fida, kau ingat lagi tak bila cikgu bi kita (aku tak ingat nama... Madam Tan ker? tahla..) ajar Left dan Right. Kalau salah angkat tangan kena rotan? Haha...Aku pun kenalah kadang-kadang kan. Nak buat macam mana..blurr la time tuu.. Kau kena takk? Kau kan pelajar pintar, mesti tak kan? ehhe..


Kau ingat tak masuk darjah 1, aku tak pakai baju kurung biasa? Aku pakai gaun yang selalunya student Cina pakai tuu. Serius seminggu tu aku malu sebab aku sorang je student 'HOT' pakai ala-ala chinese. Hahaha.. Pasan gila kan? Then minggu tuu aku terus suruh mak aku beli baju kurung and tudung sekali tau. Malu punya pasal. hehe


Banyak memori kita berdua juga sebab yang lain-lain kita rapat bila kita masuk form 1 kan? Yang paling aku ingat cikgu matematik aka cikgu lukisan kita masa sekolah rendah. Aku tak ingat nama beliau. Cikgu lelaki. Dari awal tahun hingga akhir tahun asyik melukis gambar ikan je (tengok gambar kat bawah)..ahhahaa... Masalahnya sama je lak tuu bentuk ikan tuu lepas tuu beliau pun tidur sambil tunggu semua siap. Lukisan tuu pula jarang dipungut pun. Sekadar untuk simpanan sendiri..hahaa. Rindu cikgu tuu. Dah meninggal ker beliau? Aku pun tak pasti.

Kalau time subjek matematik pula, aku memang nak minta maaf kat kau sebab aku banyak susahkan kau dulu. Cewahh.. Yela, sebab aku tak hafal sifir kau pun kena. Ingat lagi tak apa yang beliau buat? Kita kena baca sifir berapa ya masa tuu? Mungkin antara sifir 4/6/7/8.. sebab sifir-sifir ni memang aku lemah. Setiap pelajar kena baca secara bergandingan(duo). So bila aku salah, beliau hentak kepala kita berdua. Pening woo.. Rasa ting tong la jugak. ahhahahaa


Kau ingat tak time kita main party-party.. eh, kau ada tak time ni? Tidak aku ingat. hahaha.. Kita masa tuu darjah 3 rasanya. Semua mesti beli something untuk dimakan beramai-ramai. Ada kacang kuning, kacang hijau, jajan..semua adalah.. So kita buat mangkuk kecik pakai paper dan tuangkan kedalam mangkuk buatan tuu. Best woo.. Kira buat jamuan untuk group kita jela. *tolong remind aku kau ada tak time ni? ahaha


Actually aku nak bagitahu, aku masuk darjah 4 hanya dilantik sebagai pengawas pusat sumber je. Masuk darjah 6 baru aku jadi pengawas. Benci aku dengan ketua pengawas aka skandal kau tuu. ahha.. Si Fuad Khalis... Nak ngelat sikit pun tak boleh. Sampai Library dia cari. Hhahaa


Bila masuk sekolah menengah, baru kita jadi rapat 4 sekawan. Kau, Yan, Tika dan aku. berempat bersama-sama. Cuma aku agak sedih bila masuk form 4 kita terpaksa berpisah. Yela, aku sedar aku tak pandai. Aku ni bukan apa kan. Banyak yang aku pendam dan aku tak bagitahu korang.


Korang tahu tak apa aku rasa bila aku pindah kelas bawah (even kelas no 2 je kan)? Serius aku malu, sedih dan tak tahu nak kawan dengan sapa. Since awal-awal aku dah mention yang aku ni kan pemalu orangnya. Aku sangat-sangat depressed tau. Sebab tuu aku beria-ia nak pindah Teknik walaupun mak aku tak kasi. Last-last aku tak pindah sebab masa tuu kewangan mak aku ada masalah. Reason ni memang aku tak bagitahu sesiapa. Kali ni aku tulis sebab bagi aku, norma kehidupan setiap orang ada masalah. It's okay jika kadang kala kita nak meluahkan sesuatu.


Nak tahu apa paling mengecewakan aku? Aku sebenarnya amat mencemburui Ana. Bila aku turun kelas korang ada ahli baru. Korang buat aku rasa sedih sebab korang macam dah jumpa pengganti tempat aku. Aku terasa sangat. Sebab tuu kadang-kadang aku malas nak pergi kelas A. Yela, korang kan pandai. Aku ni cuma girls next door je. Tempat aku pun dah bertuan baru kan? Tapi itu dulu la..sekarang aku dah okay dah..jangan risau..hahaha


Yang paling penting kau tahu tak apa yang menyebabkan result aku teruk? Sebab aku malas belajar. Aku ambil semua sambil lewa. Matematik aku lagi la..harammm nak belajar sejak aku dapat tahu beliau bersikap perkauman sedikit. Kadang-kadang je beliau okay. So aku memberontak. Memang cara aku macam ni kot. Aku memberontak melalui sesuatu yang akan menjatuhkan diri aku. Yela, budak-budak. So, aku memang menyesal.


Same goes with SPM. Aku ambil semuanya sambil lewa. Aku bukan seorang student bermasalah pun. Cuma aku memang MALAS. Last minute baru aku nak tersedar. So aku just speed untuk matematik saja. Yela, matematik yang senang pun aku tak lulus. Macam mana? Nak speed untuk Kimia dan Fizik memang haramm lah kan.. Aku cuba dengan tahap 60% sahaja. Ye...memang salah aku kan. Aku tahu..hehe


Aku nak ucap terima kasih sebab time SPM kau study sama-sama dengan aku. Paling tak boleh blah aku punya agama tuu. Aku kan slow bab-bab agama. Dari antara bottom 3 dalam kelas A & B, aku boleh dapat A2 tuu. Aku macam tercenganglah juga. Orang lain yang lagi teror dari aku pun dapat B je.. Hahaha.. rasa kagum dan terima kasih kat kau..=)


Anyway..memang panjang entry ni. Khas untuk rakanku bernama FARIDAH HANIM BT MOHD KHALIM. Kalau diberi peluang, lagi panjang aku nak tulis untuk kau. Aku sayang kawan-kawan aku. Sepanjang hidup aku, aku dah jumpa macam-macam jenis kawan. Tapi tak jumpa lagi seorang sahabat seperti kau. Rindu kau dan tak sabar menunggu our upcoming journey..

nota kaki : Kaulah orang / rakan pertama yang datang beraya rumah aku. Sayang kau..=) *walaupun kau kutuk tulisan aku buruk (walaupun memang hakikatnya..hahaha) tapi aku taip kat sini dapat la cover kan?hahaa

Tag? Why?

Assalamualaikum,

A few days ago my lovely friend aka FHMK ask me to answer her tag which she also got tagged from someone that I thought should be her friend larh kan. Hehe.. So below is the strict rules? Okay, because I am bad person maybe I will not follow it much...hehe..

Firstly, this type of tag will not suppose to find the end as there are a million or billion questions in this entire world unless there are number of peeps that lazy to answer it (like me??hehe). But as this tag has been requested by that cute girl so I still answer it k..=)


11 Bad or cute Or Gorgeous Or Wtver la things bout saya =)

1. I am me which I can be a quiet, crazy, hyperactive, lazy, temper, mulut longkang. maknenek, etc. Which I also always think that I am VERSATILE in short term..hehhe =)

2. I am not a crazy over korea and why peeps always say that? I also follow on Barat, Timur, Selatan Utara, etc. So I'm just a follower of the current phenomenon. Take note!

3. I am totally does not cerewet at all. Just Sometimes I would like to do it on my own way. I can be precise, clumsy and sometimes just at least a basis. But things goes differently in eating. I eat all that I can =)

4. I am Johorean and currently I'm staying at KL more than 3 years. So I'm quite sick with KL. Need to find tour to Korea i guess?? =)

5. I am working after I finished my diploma and still under management trainee. So I'm seeking for more adventurous work out there. Can give me one?

6. Yes, I am cute!! Okay tak statement nie? hehe

7. Easily fall down but hate a liar. Once u lie and stab back(tikam belakang) me, I will not forget it. Trust me!

8. Really need a friend and go out of country for a while right now!!

9. I hate peeps that randomly send msg to give free loan, video (porn ok!) , etc. Pls la, if I want I will download it by myself okay.

10. Hate myself for easily trust peeps and hard to push myself to higher level in my life. Tuu la, dulu malas belajar kan..haha


Okay.. I guess it is too much bout me rite? Just don't vomit in my wall yea..hehe. So I will answer FHMK tag rite now..May I? =)



Her 11 Danjerios Questions.

1) Any favorite blog you would like to recommend me to read? Why?
Yes but I think I should keep it secret as it is my fav blog rite? Okey, because u cumill, I bgtau k. It is asisul & her wife's blog. I think you should know rite? I really love this couple actually. Follow and know who is asisul k..

2) Have you ever fan-girling/fan-boying over something/someone? Elaborate. (Lmao this.)
Arghh.. Lame la.. U know who rite? Old story ma... (kereta hijau..ohhh tidakk..ahah) +D

3) Do you think you're independent girl/boy?
I hope so. And fyi i really tried to be it. I am trying even sometimes I might be failed. Still trying.

4) Any ironic life experience to share?
Become a lazy student in High school is my ironic drama. It is the causes and the main reason why all this life become ironic. Interesting? =()

5) What do you expect to see from yourself 5 years from now?
I hope 5 years from now I'm planning for my wedding. Hope so. =P

6) Any hidden talent that other people do not know about you?
I really love to join adventure to other country or any camping. It is really make me feel alive but Aiman will not allow me =(

7) Why did you choose to create a blog on the first place?
To share my feeling because internet does not know who am I and I also can choose who I can be.

8) Are my questions over the limit? Sorry, sorry.
Yes U R!! Hahahhaa

9) Money is not everything. Do you agree with the statement?
Yes. For example, I am working rite now will my salary only 900 per month and u can counts when it will be deducted with epf, socso n etc. I choose to work here because I love the environment. I have friends. But I still need to find another work because I need more experience and can u see that it still not comes to money first?

10) Recommend me a good place for camping? Lmao.
Janda Baik. really nice place. I can guarantee u..=)

11) Is tagging people necessary? Elaborate. Again. HAHA.

For a lil kids, the answer is yes. Words does not explained bout u in details. Hangouts and keep in touch to know others. It is much better. Agree??




As the lazy girl, I will not tag anyone or asking any questions. Love my friends. Really. Miss old time with u...=)

Fahamokha90

Maybe all of you wondering who is Fahamokha90 right? She is one of may besties from the kindergarten until right now. Even it has been quite a long time im not see and hangout with her, i still think she is my besties forever. Right now, i never talk my personal things details to any of my besties. My love is the only one know everything.

Why suddenly i wrote about her? It is because a few seconds ago, i read her blog. What happen to her and some of the word really emotional to me. About her mum, dad and even herself. It is a part of her that i never knew and i dont even know in my entire life. But i really know her feeling and herself. Sometimes it is hard to write or listen about the others part of their life that really emotion and personal. I understand and i know why i dont know about that.

She is the one that i will express my feeling, sadness or happiness whilst the school. I love her and i love to be with her. She will listening and think positively. What she will do just laughing and will not support my negative thinking..Hahhaa....Missed so much the moment.

She is really put evrything about herself secretly and will not tell anyone if she in trouble moreover in her personal life. She will never tell anyone. For me, she is my idol and one of my best friend i ever had in my life. One more thing that i like is she born in 16 December 1990 and it is the same month with my birthday.

Dear Fahamokha90,

I miss u so much. Be strong and keep strong, I know u can do it better and bet all of the expectation that all of them put on u. U can do it. U such a clever and intelligent person. Wait and we will meet soon...=)